I feel so hurt, so lost and so confused.
I had no idea which way to go.

He's preparing to move out.
Packing his things since yesterday.
One bag two bags etc.

I kept crying the whole night till I'm tired.
Just woke up with my eyes in a painful mess.
I couldn't stop crying.
My eyes hurt.
Maybe everyone would be happier if I didn't exist.
I'm contemplating suicide.
I really don't know which way to go.
I'm losing all my hope and happiness.
I'm a hopeless wretch now.
Guess I'm just a toy or a tool to everyone.
Family took me for granted, used my name to sign up for home phone line as well as broadband, then not even paying the bills. And now they also used my name to sign for handphone line and a wireless modem, they did pay for it but didn't clear the bills on time.
What do they take me for?!
Then when things happen its always my fault?
Has it ever occur to them that how can I get married when i'm carrying all those debts under my name?!
Did they ever think about that at all?

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